Known to the literary world as one of its best book reviewers, Annie McDonnell reveals her gift for storytelling in this soaring blend of essays and poems that traces the many tragedies and joys that mark her life. What makes her work even more remarkable is that much of it was written since Annie, who has been disabled since 2014, was told in January 2020 that she must go into hospice and was given last rites. In her cross-genre blend of memoir, auto-fiction, magical realism, and poetry, she pours out her dreams, her loves, and her hopes along with her complicated grief compounded by betrayals, medical misdiagnosis, and innumerable losses that would break most people. Her determination to live a life of love, joy, and meaning despite her great suffering shines throughout the dark themes of many of her essays and poems. An advocate for literacy, animal rescue, and those with disabilities, Annie, who is in the end stages of Stiff Person Syndrome and has several other rare diseases, writes with raw emotion about traumas from her childhood best friend's rape and murder to her own life-altering car accident at age 19 to her decades-long odyssey through a medical system where women's symptoms are frequently dismissed, misdiagnosed, and minimized. Annie's experiential memoir, for which she's provided QR codes linking to her favorite songs throughout, allows the reader to get a hint of what it's like living suspended between this earthly existence and the afterlife. She lives each day and night knowing that her next breath could be her last and keeps her heart focused on heaven.